yogen wants to hear ur cr

[taketori]

~YOGEN CHARACTER RELATIONSHIP MEME~


pictured: you, talking about what ur character thinks of someone else

step 1: post with your characters
step 2: respond to others with the characters you have CR with (or not, i aint gonna stop you)
step 3: get all the details on how their characters feel about yours!
step 4: return da favor?

i havent made one of these in a while it ok

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[samuraiwomen]

[ Crashes into my skurnkly. my eeby deeby. my snooby wooby. ]

[notsosou]

Sara: WHERE TO START WITH SARA CHIDOUIN. It hurts me so much bc coming off emotion route Shin really was in that place where being allies and then gradually friends with her made sense to him, and he'd also been learning more about her over time and slowly eroding that pedestal he'd had her on, realising maybe they're not too different, that the game and it's responsibility had a massive negative impact on her even as he still grapples with the sense of having people look up to you and do things for you being a bad thing, that Midori took an interest in her (with the attendant Implications and sympathy) and that she's just.... kind of a weird person in general, it's not a bit?

I love that they got to just have stupid arguments over nothing and go on conversational tangents and riff off each other. I think also that it's interesting that Shin sees Sara as having more of a future than him and than she thinks she does herself. Some of that pedestal definitely still remains; he sees her as someone who's better at making friends than she strictly is, who has a nose for weaknesses and throwing people off guard and co-ordinating people even with that toll it takes on her. He goes between recognizing it's bad and relying on it himself.

December kills me bc it really did shatter the idea Shin had built up in his mind that while Sara's a violent person, that violence was pointed outward away from him and somewhat of a defense for him. He's upset and hurt and angry, and while he doesn't hate her that's not the same as forgiveness because it's the same lack of hate you'd have for a tiger mauling you. He still doesn't understand what set her off and that means he can only be even warier.

Their entire friendship was built on a lie and that really stings because once more the memories have become soured in hindsight (which also makes him feel robbed because he did like being friends) and while I think Shin has enough of a spark of self-awareness to know he'd probably have been upset whenever she'd told him, it still hurts. And then there's the revelation that not only she voted for Kanna, but it was that close and that's meant even his Sara is not fully the person he thought she was from that, and also it's a subtle erosion at the revelation he had on death that's been driving him this whole time (thankfully it has a lot of inertia and further proof at this point). The whole thing of him being kept alive over Kanna because he was 'more useful' (like Kai) and because people didn't want him to die are both fucking with him in two different directions.

That said things have started to cool down and have reached a sort of neutral zone where they're not sniping at each other as much but they still tend to end up on opposite sides of things or avoid each other. Shin is in this weird hypocritical place where he doesn't expect Sara to defend him in things but is still kind of upset when she doesn't, in the same way he doesn't expect people to believe him about Midori and is surprised when they do but is still upset when they don't...

Speaking of, oof. Midori is definitely a reason for Shin to want to put aside differences to take him down but unfortunately the rift seems only to be widening, in a continuing trend of Shin and Sara talking past each other and hitting sore spots, so that even what they consider tentative overtures only end up reinforcing things.