yogen wants to hear ur cr

[taketori]

~YOGEN CHARACTER RELATIONSHIP MEME~


pictured: you, talking about what ur character thinks of someone else

step 1: post with your characters
step 2: respond to others with the characters you have CR with (or not, i aint gonna stop you)
step 3: get all the details on how their characters feel about yours!
step 4: return da favor?

i havent made one of these in a while it ok

Comments

[notsosou]

'it's an i love you from beyond the grave' got me in the heart i'm :''' )

i'm also crying thinking about that flickering scribble light and it being 'pure' bc shin isn't consciously trying to do hopeful things, he's just following his tattered heart. emotion shin really is the hope shin huh. love that komaeda's sticking around bc he wants to see it grow, shin can't get rid of him. takes your hands one day we will do the hope sense share i'm on the lookout for a good opportunity

and yissss shin knows some info about komaeda but it's all like... it's almost like trivia? bc it doesn't give him much insight into how komaeda thinks and ticks despite that shin is kind of blinkering himself about that, that understanding that came with the knowledge seems like naivete now. it's like how you write something in an exam and then change it but the first answer was right all along. npc shin was probably his own share of dumbass bc that's just a shin thing but shins are also perceptive and he didn't have his memories of trauma clouding his assessments and stopping himself being patient.

it also serves to make him a little envious im crying oh he knows FIVE languages ok shin please. But yeah the imbalance really bothers him bc Komaeda seems to be able to read him like a book. trying to think about when we talked about the brainwashing thing, i don't think shin knows about it but maybe one day he will get the Komaeda Backstory. keep thinking about how shin is still keeping komaeda's secrets despite disliking him, there's smth about that there

AND YEAH HHHH keep thinking about how like. how shin sees komaeda is exactly how he wants people to see him and clutching my head a bit bc it's. the same motivation of not wanting others hurt im crying. im crying at the idea of komaeda piecing together why shin is Like This and asking him out of nowhere he's goin to be startled cat

And yeah i do think that like. Shin liked that Midori paid attention to him, and gave him things, and showed him things and likely approached him to be friends with him??? even if he was scary and stressful, and I think he was very starved for friendship and Midori made sure he was the only source of it. I keep thinking about Shin describing Midori as an 'antihero' i think that's very telling in that it was like.... Shin feels he had stumbled into something larger than life, Midori was almost like a comic book character or fae creature but also a highschooler like him, he could do so many things and had a secret base, very cool. and shin was part of that now.

And I do think Shin who didn't have much of a barometer on friendship was like. trying to give him the benefit of the doubt and step around these things despite fearing him and knowing how selfish he was and all the games Midori played because Midori was filling a hole in his life but also because Shin is a kind person who wants to trust and see the best in people and Midori reached into that part of his heart and squeezed.

Kills me bc like. Shin is a smart cookie and knew things weren't right but he's exactly as vulnerable to lack of knowledge, vocabulary and experience and his own emotions as anyone else and it was like. being discomfited but unable to place his finger on the pulse of it. but you see that in things like trying to take his own photo etc that he was trying his protag best, it just wasn't enough.

And then of course by the time it started getting worse and worse and worse he was in too deep and trapped and couldn't get out. but there def were times where shin was happy in midori's company and comforted (even if often the reason he needed comforting was midori's fault, i think that's one of the things shin returned to on hindsight) and midori always seemed to know what he needed and they were both nerds (rocket punch!) so maybe they connected there even if i wonder how much of that was genuine on Midori's end or became genuine over time bc im crying at the concept of Midori playing this role and shin accidentally getting him into Gundam for real.

And yeah as terrified as Shin is at Midori being here, he HAS gone through a lot of development and made friends and it would not be easy getting him back but not impossible either which is hhhh he'd have to put in the elbow grease. i am not sure what will happen when they meet but i'm making the pray emoji for shin bc I do want him to be alright whatever happens. I'm crying shin actually has more of a position of strength than he thinks, maybe ranger and sara can get that through to him.