yogen wants to hear ur cr

[taketori]

~YOGEN CHARACTER RELATIONSHIP MEME~


pictured: you, talking about what ur character thinks of someone else

step 1: post with your characters
step 2: respond to others with the characters you have CR with (or not, i aint gonna stop you)
step 3: get all the details on how their characters feel about yours!
step 4: return da favor?

i havent made one of these in a while it ok

Comments

[notsosou]

Komaeda: AS ALWAYS MATTERS ARE COMPLICATED it's been interesting seeing this little sort of arc of Shin trying to pretend to continue their friendship so as to try and flip the dynamic on it's head (and also a little like... dipping his toe in the waters and his lingering emotions)... then realising he's in too deep and he can't back out but sort of still trying to pretend... then the being hunted down like a rabbit thing making smth snap and him being fuck it and gradually more and more open with his dislike and testing of boundaries.

I feel like their CR is Shin being like. Maybe Komaeda will not be Komaeda for this one small thing and then when he inevitably is Komaeda being like why the fuck do i bother/do this to myself and turtling up even more. He's unlikely to share information with Komaeda or ask him for help for this reason. Shin's nerves have been sandpapered raw and only started to heal and Komaeda gets on them. But even when Komaeda IS being nice, like on New Years, he can't trust it... there's no winning with him.

It kills me too bc it's kind of a self-perpetuating effect you can see happening in reverse direction with Shin's friendships where he tests the waters and it works out so he does it a little more.... but there's so much inertia here he's increasingly less likely to. It'd take something to really shatter the calcified image of Komaeda in his head.

He's very skeptical about Komaeda's philosophy of hope because he's read it as largely self-serving and self-justifying. What gives hope is shockingly, what Komaeda wants, news at 11 (despite this being like. a bit of a chicken and egg situation). He's basically filled in his own ideas of how the world works into it, so that's what he hears whenever Komaeda starts talking about it. I still love that he tries not to mention the word in case it summons him.

Ultimately Komaeda is someone that feels dangerous to him in an emotionally complicated way, and it bothers him to no end that he's got his defenders anyway... (Sara becoming friends with him top 10 anime betrayals) he's largely given up on doing anything about this beyond warning newcomers. We all know about the Midori projection hours, which means he's inclined to give Komaeda zero benefit of doubt even over time as someone who's had that abused in the past.

One interesting thing about this though is that... since Shin wasn't the one who ended things with Midori, he doesn't know how to do it without that kind of clean break, and the chance for that with awakening in Yogen sailed by accident. He doesn't know how to disentangle himself from Komaeda especially since he knows too much reaction is what Komaeda wants, so he just kind of sits on it and suffers. Through puzzle time often. And Russian novels.

On the other side of things the thing with the tic tac toe kills me. I think Shin's memories of his NPC self started out fuzzy and have faded with time, but they def have had an impact on things, and that's something that's existentially terrifying to Shin too, as someone who already struggles with identity issues. Deep, deep, down, locked in the basement and tattered, is something that wanted to be friends with Komaeda, and he might have been a little more willing to try if the rumors of murder hadn't tipped the scales as early as they did.

Midori: MANY COMPLICATED FEELINGS. Shin really did look up to Midori, see him has a big brother figure even as he was scared of him... it was complicated at the time and it only got more complicated after as Shin slowly realised some very hard things to realise but those don't just make the emotions go away instantly... He did manage to move on despite this. I still think about Shin being upset he wasn't the only person Midori toyed with for multiple reasons.

They haven't even met yet and Midori's arrival has Shin feeling like he's been dunked in ice water like the gentle persuasion comic. It's putting a lot of things in perspective: he might actually have to think about how he'd take Komaeda over Midori, but also it's made Shin realise how emotionally open he's let himself become and how many friends he's made and thereby... how vulnerable he is, and they are. He's caught in this weird state where because of the December events his ability to feel like he can rely on those friends has taken a hefty hit and left uncertainties, but also he's not logic sou either; he's not utterly dead inside and uninteresting chalk and salt, and trying for that is going to hurt. As a result emotions are running high in general despite Shin knowing he needs to get them under control for this.